I suppose my block 3 boring, but in fact it brings me a lot of fun
lovely teachers, and also lovely classmates
compared to my poor block 2, horrible atmosphere

I wonder my life will be better
even though I feel hopeless the days before
almost everybody in the class feel superior to others
everyone seems to be excellent, and it made me be under a lot of pressure
so I got into the habbit of sleeping in the class,wasting time，my attention was never concentrated on study.
I wrote my essay until the week before the deadline, I hadn't prepared for all my exams
tears came down as soon as I received my feedback with marks

what I expected turn into dust,
no one knows why I become so reluctant to study including myself
maybe my time was contributed to something else which have no significant sense
drinking, walking in the path, just crying

I have forgot the promise, sorry...dears

 

when I saw the couples on the campus, some are hand with hand，some are even cuddling or kissing
I feel a little disappoited in some ways for I haven't got a boyfriend
but luckily if I do so, maybe the situation will be even worse
I know, a friend has less position than a girlfriend.
I really know, from now on, there is no room left for me
still to be suffering is stupid, right?

I was no longer the girl in the melody, right?

 

still have the horrible dream these days
be afraid to meet a second him
so I force myself not to lose my heart to anybody
my love is just died.

my memory is also fade

 

Now I push myself into studying. tired, but wonderful.

 

(the night of 2nd April)
I want to say: thanks. dear.
From u , I know, love is in the memory though unable to present
a little moved through my eyes...so unbelievable
sorry to say "no feeling" to u
that's my job
u know, she is more important than u